Reflections
of Henry Demonford
Nov.
9, 2014
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| Devious Secret Agent Wakes from a Dream of St. Augustine |
“I
am beginning to realize,” reflects Henry Demonford, as he nervously
adjusts the IV needle in his vein, “that what has been going on
through all of this century – we thought we had killed the Cave
Bear. But this Cave Bear has survived, feeding on the same trash that
we left when we were committing our genocides. In fact, since God is
the totalization of everything that we have killed, the Cave Bear
gets bigger and more threatening with every act of colonialist
exploitation the nation commits. That is why, in spite of all of our
efforts to torture him into submission, the Cave Bear keeps coming
out of the Third-World forests, to chew on our civilized
conscience.”
Grizzly
Bear
I had not intended to go the
way of the Cave Bear. It had been my belief that I lived on a better
continent, under a happier sky.
Henry
Demonford:
“Why
is it that it is only ourselves, the Old Soldiers who have not been
able to keep any of the Commandments, who are able to see through the
web of lies and deception that is woven by the Social Neurosis?
Indeed, it is only now, now that I am finding myself almost at the
end of this life, that I am beginning to understand, that God is
actually the immense burden of obligation we have taken on, as a
result of the things we have killed.i
“It
is only now, now that I wake up struggling to adjust to the effects
of chemotherapy, that I am beginning to appreciate the sickness of
the world, and see why it is so distressing. The world is sick, but
it is only a few of us who have been shocked deeply enough to realize
just how sick it is.
“We,
who have been thrown into confusion, have been sick with the sickness
of the world. We have been right there for the money when the demons
insisted on signing their contracts in blood. The fact that we have become post-traumatic implies that we do have a
choice. The reason we are post-traumatic is that the demons really
are tearing us apart, because they sense that we are reneging on
those Satanic contracts by which we had been bound.
Why
is if that if is only we, the old soldiers who have managed to keep
none of the commandments, who can see through the web of deception
the social neurosis weaves? Can if be, one sees the design of the
devil only after one has turned back oneself from a road that is
leading to Satanhood?
“This
is why the choice between Heaven and Hell belongs to those of us who
find that we are being torn apart by the Cave Bear. When we realize
that, through our struggles with this Cave Bear, we have actually
died and come back, we discover also, that when we had been immersed
in the imperialistic machinations into which our societies had thrust
us, we had been on the road to Satanhood.
We
then came to recognize, that if we valued the soul that we had been
taught to cherish above all things, that we would need to turn back.
What I am now also beginning to perceive, is that one can only
perceive the design of the Devil, after one has become enmeshed
within it. Those who have never made deals with the Devil are usually
naive, and do not recognize the snake who is moving beneath the
rustling leaves. They can continue to be innocent, because their
souls have never been in danger. We, on the other hand, who are
threatened by powers of demons if we should ever repent – we are
the ones who have the power to change the world, but only if we learn
to love our souls more than we love our own flesh.
“But
we can do this, because we have always been fighters. This is not the
first time we have been threatened by creatures whose intent has been
to tear us apart. The only difference is that now, if we are fighting
for the preservation of our souls, we can feel resigned to the fact
that our bodies are expendable.
“This
is the realization that caused Sir Lancelot to fall from his high
horse, and this is the reason why you see so many old warriors
begging by the side of the road.”
